The word 'bestie' and BFF is discussed quite frequently when you have 10 year old twin daughters. One day you have one, the next day you don't.
It always makes me think. I have no history with anyone. No siblings. There are friends from grade school and high school. There are a few people from college. There are friends from past jobs. And there are acquaintances from places I've lived. But among all those, there's no one who has been through everything with me. There's no one with inside jokes. The knowledge of all the broken hearts. No one knows my fears and deep insecurities. The pain of miscarriages, and the struggle and joy of having babies. No annual girls' trips. No special birthday parties. No pictures assuming the "sorority hug" pose with beaming smiles at some fancy event.
Ken has a bestie. Almost everyone I know has a bestie. Yet, I don't.
Even at my 'advanced' age, you'd think that I wouldn't care or be sad about something as trivial as this, but ya know, it can hurt my heart, until I think of Ecclesiastes 3:1-8. There's a time for everything in life. And I guess there's people for every part of your life, too. I can think of many people who, unbeknownst to them, played a big part in my life for some specific reason. And then they are gone. Did I not do enough to 'keep' these people in my life? I always thought I wore my heart on my sleeve, but maybe I don't. Did they just not value me as much as I valued them? I guess I'll never know.
But one thing I do know is that while I don't have a bestie on earth, I do have an amazing bestie in Jesus. He knows the inside jokes. He feels all my pain and joy. He thinks I'm pretty special. In fact, He knows the number of hairs on my head.....but seriously, ENOUGH with the gray ones!
As my girls grow up, I know they will have many BFF's as the seasons of their lives change. My prayer is they will always be each others' BFF and know that Jesus is their real bestie!
I know, when my time is up, Jesus will be there with a hug. A 'Jesus hug' vs 'sorority hug'? Yeah, no contest.
